I know!!! You don’t hear from me in months and BAM!! Two posts in one night….lol. I painted this canvas a couple of evenings ago and I’m not really loving it…..wasn’t even going to post it. As I said in my last post, I’ve been following two amazing ladies on Ustream for some time now and each one of them has a monthly Dare/Challenge. Tracy has what she calls a monthly Creative Dare and Limor has a monthly Mixed Media Challenge. I painted this with the intention, at first, to enter it into Tracy’s Creative Dare which was to find one of her Monday Night creations she’s done and re-create it for ourselves. Here is the original piece that Tracy did that inspired me to do mine:
It wasn’t until I’d completed it….decided I hated it……painted the canvas I posted in the last blog post…….read through the challenges again…..that I decided this was the ‘perfect’ piece for both challenges. Limor’s challenge was to create a project that included a phrase/saying of something you want to remind yourself about you that you usually forget. It was also to include stamps from unity Stamp company if we had any…..which I do not…..so I used my Tim Holtz Ultimate Grunge stamp set as background stamped images.
Having this feeling of perfection is something I struggle with allot…..especially in my creative world. I constantly compare myself to other’s and their work and I never feel mine measures up. It’s silly, I know, as the whole idea and reason I paint is to express myself…..not someone else. The reason I create anything is because I truly love this creative outlet and is often therapy for me……and cheaper than an actual therapist. 😉 This is a canvas I did that I’m not totally in love with…..it’s been Gesso’d over a few times…..and I wasn’t going to even post it. Then I sat back and took a look at it again for the 100th time and read my quote again…..and yes…..the light came on. I didn’t love it because I ended up crowding my word ‘redefine’….. I didn’t love it because it’s got about 4 layers of paint on it….at least. Then I looked at it as I read through the two challenge entry requirements and decided that it is perfect…..for me. I think the word ‘redefined’ being crowed to the edge speaks VOLUMES to my need for perfection. It’s like it was meant to be just like it is. The layers of paint….perfect as it’s added texture and dimension to the piece. So, here is my entry for both challenges…… in all it’s perfection…..for me.
I just have to add……I typed this all out……and kept second guessing myself over and over again. I had the hardest time hitting publish on this one. I think I’m too old to learn a new definition of perfect…..just sayin’.